I have come to know that I’m really going to die someday. I hope that this doesn’t come as a surprise to you. I know that you must have anticipated my dying when you and God brought me into the world. You never told me that I was going to die, but I’m not mad or upset. I realize it is something that I had to find out for myself. Besides, who wants to talk about dying all the time?
The illness that brought me to this place of
thinking is mostly over, but I’m not over what it changed in me. It made me realize down deep inside that I am
not in control. That God is in control
of my life – my birth, my living, my dying and my salvation. He is in control in the sense that He created
me and that I am His when my life on earth is over.
As for earthy living, He is in control only to the
extent that I let Him control my life.
That’s right; I have veto power over God until I die. If I trust myself more than I trust God, I
can tune Him out of my natural life.
There is a gamble, however, if I choose to take control. What happens to me if at the most critical
moment, I weaken? At the point when I
must be sharper than ever before, what if I slip? What if I can’t quite put things
together? What will I do? The answer is clear. I must seek God’s Grace with faith in His
love and power.
When we experience God, and He shows us the way and
we see His light, then we have truly experienced death. Death is seeing God, and this is a miracle, a
surprise. And so, this is the irony in
the way we humans look at death. The
very thing that we fear as we work to prolong life turns out to be the greatest
joy of all.
So we, in our lives can experience death years
before it comes. We can do this by
giving up control and having faith that God will redeem all that might happen
to us. Of course, we must do our best to
live our lives in our realities, by following the example of God’s Son our
Savior Jesus Christ and all the Saints.
And we can experience God and His love and thus taste the beauty of
death – that time when we become one with God forever.
We are here in the natural life for a very short
time. In God’s eternal kingdom the
length of our natural life is not important, nor is the way that we die. Death is merely the doorway to a nearer
presence of God. If we can make our
reality here on Earth more peaceful and joyful by seeking to know God, it makes
perfect sense to do so. Through God we
are connected with all mankind, past, present, and future. As a husband and parent now, I know that I must
not fear my children’s death or my wife’s death whether or not it precedes mine. I must not fear your death or my own,
Mother.
Above all Mother, I want you to teach me how to die
and help me teach my children, your grandchildren. Your love of our Lord is shining so bright
that all of us may now experience with you the miracle of coming into the
presence of God. Armed with God’s love,
our earthly reality no matter how long, will be a joyful experience. God is patient. He will wait for us. And we will be joyful in Him, for he lives
and reigns forever and ever.
Faithfully, Your Loving Son.
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